I lost my beloved husband yesterday morning at 5am, after falling ill on Friday which we was told by the GP in attending that he had a mild chest infection. he suffers from COPD, and before this day although he was ill on and off in the last few weeks had felt really good, and even we discussed finally moving to the IOW, and he went on tuesday for a few days to have a look around the area for best places, and met his son for an hour. He came home thursday full of it, and really enjoyed it although he was very tired.
He was ill sat and sunday, and on monday morning i found him slumped over my mobility arm by the toilet he was in so much pain he couldnt talk and i thought he had a stroke. I managed to get neighbour to help and stay with him whilst i waited for ambulance.
It turned out he had worse pneumonia laced with septicaemia and sepsis, and by 5am 3rd he passed away. I was with him all night watching him trying to breath and he was confused and didnt really know what was going on. I watched as his life drained away from him, and he fell asleep into the long sleep and left me forever. I cant believe how much pain this has caused me in my heart to loose someone so fast when you think all along it would be yourself having enduring a disease such as MS.
He was 71 years old nearly to have his birthday. Just like that gone. My MS is playing havoc and I dont know how i have got through the day and night. I really never for one moment thought i would loose my beloved partner as we were very close and been together for 25 years and planning a new life together for me, to see if the sea air would help my symptoms.
I write this to say, we may have MS but it keep an eye on your partners as they are human like us, and can easily fall prey to diseases out there. Remember arguments are futile, dont waste a moment on being angry with each other, love each other and hug each other, because you never know when they may just disappear from your lives for ever.
My heart aches so much, i still have MS but at least i had it with the support of my hubby, now i have it and will have to deal with it on my own.
I just cant believe, you can loose someone so fast it simply takes my breath away.