I am so desperate that i thought i better post something! I am so alone and i cant stop crying. My partner left me 5 months ago because he needed to find himself but instead he found a new, healthy, young girl thats a friend of his family. They didnt like me at all and often spoke negatively about me in terms of my MS and how it was too much for their son to have to deal with (i am 32 and he is 43). Since i found out he has met someone else, i cant stop crying and i mean ALL DAY ! I have had a kidney infection and my fatigue is so bad and i just feel so ill. I keep trying and trying to feel positive but its so hard. I am on benefits and barely survive, i dont see anybody because my mum and dad live far away and my mum cares for my disabled dad and i dont really have any friends (they all dissapeared the more ill i got). I am very very lonely and i just dont know what to do. I also cant bare the thought of him starting a new life with a someone else who is healthy and they can do all the things in life that i wanted to do but couldnt.
Before i had MS i was very thin and popular and attractive and successful, now i am fat and alone and i really want to get out of this hole but i physically cant.
I am so sorry to moan. I am whinging away as i type this and feel like such a failure. I just want to be the way i was .
Sorry again x x x needed to get it out before i burst x x x