words I wrote down

Primary progressive MS
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I wrote this a few weeks ago and can only now share it

Panic

I awoke with the feeling of fear in my chest

It was just the panic inside of my head

Was it a knife that had hurt me

Inflicted a wound, drawn bright fresh blood

I remember the panic inside of my head

No it was not a weapon

Nor an act of violence

It was just the panic inside of my head

It was something remembered

A chance thought reborn

It was just the panic inside of my head

Its painful,like a hammer

Had I bashed my fingers

It was just the panic inside of my head

The feeling of tightness of fear in my chest

Was it pain or the panic inside of my head

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Hi, yeh, panic attacks are common with disability.

We fear what may happen when we are not in control of our bodies.

We fear that we may lose independence.

We fear we may hurt ourselves accidentally.

We fear the thought of a stranger becoming a carer

All these things have happened to me and Im still here...alive and chuffin kicking!!!

pollx

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Panic attacks are horrible Don, I feel for you. I have been told when I have them to breathe in through my nose slowly counting to 3 and out through the mouth slowly counting the same, but it is easier said than done at the time.

Otheer people also breath in and out of a paper bag, and find relief that way until it passes, I tried this but it made me light headed, but it may work for you.

((((hugs))))

Pam x

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Don, you closet poet. That has rhythm, clarity and beauty.

I spend ages writing because I love it. I’m a big fan of roman candle vocabulary. But your’s is heartfelt and succinct.

Best wishes.

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Very true Don, Panic is awful i dread a panic attack, ive been okay recently but i went though a time when i was scared to go to bed because i would wake up terrified feeling like i couldn’t breath. One night a few years ago before I lost mobility I had a bad bout of tinnitus, Lee was away, I was so scared It brought on a panic attack so bad that i was on the phone to the nhs help line i felt like i was dying.

Michelle x

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I just like to get my thoughts written down, I keep a journal and a pencil by the bed and another is the dinning room for emergency thoughts, I find if something comes into my head if I dont write it down it will be lost.

Thanks for your comments folks.

xxx Don

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Im like you with emergency thoughts`…I like that phrase!

But if I dont say it or write it down, it soon goes astray…then I spend hours searching for it!

pollx

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