I’m relapsing aat the moment and although the original symtpom (ON) is almost cleared up, I’m left with poor balance and dizziness, and a bad tremor. What is worse at the moment though is this feeling of being paralysed by anxiety and panic that just does not seem like me - I don’t recognise myself! I i feel my whole body shaking and my heart really races. If I go anywehere busy it becomoes overwhelming and I have to leave.
I’ve reached a point where I’m fine at home, in my gardenand walking my dog by the river, but I now feel afraid of breaking from this routine and setting off another panic attack. I haven’t been anywhere all week, I’ve still not gone back to work and am starting to think I’m becoming a bit agraphobic. At least I can see it developing and plan to challenge myself a little this week, one step at a time. MS nurse says it is psychological coping with my ms flaring up again, but I feel it is purely physical - not me (my mind) but my brain doing htis to me. Also feel over emotional, crying at nothing, which really isn’t me.
Neuro (via MS nurse) has offered amtriptyline for nerve pain, but I see it is also an antidepressant, so may help. Problem is I’m already on Keppra for seizures, and she says I’d have to increase that as the amtrip… can reduce sensitivity (i think that’s what she said, I was sobbing uncontrollably at the time so coudn’t take it in) I’m very wary of taking a cocktail of drugs…
Be grateful for any support on this, finding the site a great help again as it was when I was first diagnosed.
ps, i can spell, but can’t type, hands too shaky so forgive all the errors!
pps, i did post this yesterday as a reply on an old post but then thought it seemed better to start a fresh one