I’m having the dark curtain days too, at the moment mostly I have a good day if you can call it that, then the next day I have a bed day. It seems to be working. It only goes wrong when I convince myself I can go out and do things and realise as soon as I am out of the back door that I am thinking the wrong thing.
There has been a change this week, my neighbour asked me to feed her chickens which turned out to be six chickens, two cats and two rabbits. The cats hate each other the rabbits hate each other. So the chickens have a coop and a mass of garden, the one rabbit runs free, the other is in a large pen, the two cats live in the house and can get but the one will only eat if I sit on the floor in the kitchen with her. Blimey. So I think it has done me good in a way although I am so tired each day because of it. It is next door really so a few steps, then sit with the cats, snuggle the one who is nice, go out whilst being pecked at by hungry chickens, collect their eggs whilst being pecked by chickens, take them in whilst other cat appears and runs off, go up the garden where I have created a sitting feeding station, give sweetcorn to very hungry chickens, give greens to very hungry chickens all whilst they are flapping and pecking and trying to get in my knee, go get chicken pellets and put that out, go get rabbit food for lovely rabbit who runs free, go get rabbit pellets and get into pen for lonely rabbit who has dug a six foot hole (that seems to be heading towards my garden), go down the bottom of the garden to get escaped small rabbit who has pushed the fencing out of the way, shoo her back in, fill hole with rocks, fill water buts for all little things, put fresh straw about for all, give everyone a snuggle then back in the house to sit with the scared cat.
I have loved it but it has turned into the only thing I do each day really. Then I am exhausted so sitting and lying. Yesterday I decided as the weather will change soon, to just pick some greens out of the field for them. I dragged my grey face and trixy leg and foot round the corner and was rewarded with a nice man chatting about rabbits and his dog, Teazle. I was only out for five but it was very pleasant to see someone and talk. I felt better for it even though I thought whilst he was talking that I was about to fall down.
Balance is hard. Has this activity made me feel ill, yes! Shall I be in bed all day today after chicken feeding, yes! My son sends me links to funny (usually very inapropriate films) netlfix most days, so when I am in bed or sitting in my support chair I watch all sorts of tat which makes me laugh. I find this helps. Also I have not been hungry although under Doctor’s orders, eating regularly otherwise he pulls his face. I don’t think we are supposed to eat much really when it is this hot. The other night, a rare occasion at my son’s house, nearly 80 degrees in their newbuild lovely house, roast for dinner! No ta, not for me I said, I’ll have a bowl of cereals. They were then up all not being very unwell.
My snacks when not hungry this year have been those tiny bags of nuts, fresh red peppers, green olives, raw grated carrots and greens. Apples, mixed with a bit of melon or grape. Those have helped me inbetween not-hungry periods especially when I have been up a long time and not eaten. Then I spoilt it and went to the chip shop.
Have a good Saturday everyone. Off next door now for the last time (thank goodness) then bed or garden with a book.