I can’t do this anymore. I have 200ml of nembutal.if I take it, will it be fatal, or will I end up in hospital.
I’m sorry. I retract my post. You don’t want to hear this.
Please please do not even try it! Please ring someone, either the MS society support line, ot the samaritans.
Things are NEVER that bad. You just need help NOW.
Sue
xxxx
Please do what Sue suggests, things will improve.
Pam xx
please dont do this, there is always a different way, i know ive been there, please please dont do this
Hi anon,
A message from our Helpline:
It sounds like you are having a really difficult time and we can hear how desperate you are feeling and would like to support you. The MS Helpline is here for you if you want to talk in a safe and confidential space to discuss how you are feeling. You can contact the helpline on their freephone line at 0808 800 8000 or email them at helpline@mssociety.org.uk. The Samaritans are also available 24 hours a day, and provide confidential emotional support for people experiencing suicidal feelings – they can be contacted on 08457 90 90 90 or you can email them at jo@samaritans.org
All the best
Chloe (web team)
No please think about this you are not alone there are people that can help. I’ve been in some pretty dark places over the years but the one thing that’s stopped me is what distruction/heartache it will leave for those left behind. Please please get help now - ring Samaritans or MS Helpline as Sue suggests.
Hello Anon, By posting on here, it’s your way of crying for help so please take the advice given and seek help, the Samaritans will listen to you for as long as you want and it will help you to talk to them. I think you know what 200ml of the drug you have will do to you but be honest with yourself, if you were going to take your own life you wouldn’t post such a question on here. It breaks my heart to see you talking like this. Of course you want help and you will get help as there are some great people and organisations who will do their utmost to help you. Scream, shout, cry, rage if you need to but suicide is never the answer, you don’t deserve to die in this way, you’re wanted on this earth for a reason…I’m not religious but I pray that you will reach into those dark thoughts you’re having and destroy them…DO NOT BE AFRAID to get help,take all the good advice you are given, you must do this.
How you doing today?
pollx
I’m ok,thank you. Unfortunately these thoughts don’t go away. I envy the way you have “accepted” your lot. I’m very, very tired of this. I just want it to stop. I want someone to tell me that I can be a little better, but I know that won’t happen. I cannot stand, walk etc and I am 99.9% dependent on my OH. That annoys me. I had to tell my OH this morning that I had wet myself because I can’t go to the toilet quick enough. My OH then has to change me as I cannot dress my bottom half. It is so embarrassing and humiliating. What to do 
I am compassionate for the way you feel, and I wish to offer some words of help…but, you have an ‘oh’. That would be nice.
Hello again anon, We don’t know anything about you…please tell us about you, your family etc. A lot of people on here talk about everything in their life, day to day things, we don’t get tired of reading about others lives, how they feel day by day, their rants, trials and tribulations. Do you talk to your OH about these feelings you’re experiencing, how does he/she feel? Are you getting any kind of outside help…? I don’t think a lot of us have really accepted the way things are, we’re just learning how to cope and live with it. I see that you’re talking to Poll and I can’t think of anyone on here better than her who you can talk to for a bit of inspiration and a bit of a brighter outlook on life. I can’t pretend to begin to understand what you’re going through physically as I’m not experiencing the difficulties you clearly are at this time but I’m sure Poll can relate with your physical problems. If you haven’t read any of her posts, please do as she is such a laugh and she always makes me smile with her attitude and outlook. Try to keep posting on here as the people on here are great and I’m sure a lot of them would like to share their thoughts etc. with you.