Hi it’s Janice again.
i am looking for some budies to help me.
i was dz with ms 2008, but last week my neurologist told me I now have spms.
i honestly can say I never saw my scans so never truly took in the fact I has ms, but have seen them now but never expected to be told it had progressed.
i have been having major problems with anxiety and my moods, my brother disowned me many yrs ago and to this day cannot tell my why, I met him today and he smirked in my face.
my daughter banged on my door accusing me of making my brother leave before he put a light up for her but she cannot get its killing me inside why he hates me, while he is around she too ignores me.
she ended up being very very nasty to me and roared personal things I had confided in her to everyone in the street, things that were very very personal to do with my husband, now he too is very very angry with me.
i admit I self harmed and have done in the past but it’s my way of coping, but this time I just cannot get things out of my head, I honestly think I cannot go on, I am scared to go out the door, I feel everyone is talking about me.she also last week physically attacked me by punching me and swinging me around by my hair pulling bunches of it out.but still puts the blame on me, I have seemingly not been helping enough since her hubbi left her 6 weeks ago,
i have been in to her nouse every single day for past 6 weeks, taken her kids to and from school every day, taken her shopping, and when I say no she calls me all sorts of names,
not once have any of my family asked about my health including my own husband, I feel so Sloane and am at the end of the line now, my body and mind cannot cope anymore ,I am going crazy, when I try to sleep all I hear is what a bad , phycotic person I am how selfish I am. How hated I am
i just need a true friend who knows what my body is going through
janice
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