Hi everyone, hope you are all as well as can be. I am sorry for moaning again, i just need to get it all out of my system. I feel so down at the moment. I am so fed up of living each like it’s a battle to survive, i know there are people worse off than me, but it is still hard. I try my best to be positive, but i am really struggling right now. Fed up of feeling rubbish all the time, the constant pain and fatigue and all the other symptoms are really getting to me. So is not being able to get around. Wish i could get a job, get my brain working and earn some money. I miss my friends so much, would love to meet up with them, but i don’t enjoy it like i should, cos it’s hard watching them have a meal when i can only have tap water cos i can’t afford to have a meal. I can’t do free activities like going for a walk or going to the beach with them cos i can’t do these things anymore. I am fed up of having no money,i don’t want lots, just enough to live on would be nice. I have made all the cutbacks i possibly can,but i still can’t afford to pay the bills and eat. Got a letter yesterday from the energy supplier saying that the tariff i’m currently on is being canceled. This means i will have to pay more, which i can’t afford, so electricity will have to be severely rationed. I am finding it hard to see the point in anything at the moment. I am on antidepressents, but they don’t work, and are not the solution. So wish i was able to get a job and earn my own money, but how?
Anyway, thanks for letting me get it off my chest, love Bex xxx