How dare I, get dressed up, go to a wedding, meet lots of people, have nice food and drink, stay up late, take photos and not even menton my condition once.
Oh how it tried to make suffer yesterday. All because I had the temerity to defy the beast. The very beast which likes to dictate every aspect of my life. Well I ignored it for the whole weekend. Despite its petulant little efforts I still managed to get on the tall stool and cook a chicken curry.
I have a theory that when we have to do something we can get through it on adrenalinā¦ but MSā¦ well you call it the beast but I call mine the elfā¦ gives it less powerā¦ anyway beast or elfā¦ HATES adrenalin so gives us hell next day. Sometimes itās even more cunning and will wait a few days before punishing us!
Good for you for insisting on having a good timeā¦ and cooking chicken curryā¦ mmmm yummy!
never ceases to amaze me what we can achieve sometimes when the adrenalin kicks in! Like Pat, I too have an elf not a beast!
anger also does it for meā¦for a short time after something makes me angryā¦I mean really angryā¦I feel so stong and capable again. It is greatā¦if only I could bottle it!
Well done Steve, sounds like you had a good weekend and I hope for your sake that the beast doesnāt come back with huge fangs and bite your bum (or chew your entire body) this week! I forced the beast to take a holiday at the weekend to let me clean my living room and the hell hole under the stairs but itās arrived back roaring loudly, hence Iāve been up since 04:30 with my skin on fire and aches and pains in areas I didnāt know could hurt.
It was worth it though so I still feel that I won. Cath 1 Beast 1/2.
Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. I think itās important to voice our achievements. I can put two lines from Paridise Lost together; āthough in pain, vaunting aloudā¦rolling in the fiey gulfā Whether Iām an apostate angel or not is another matter.
Sounds like a fab time Steve, and youāre so right, we need to be proud of these sort of achievements, which to most people would just seem like part and parcel of every day life ( and would have done to us before āThe Fallā). Brilliant!
So this morning I have been got up and dressed, sat on the loo, had a bath, and now Iām sitting waiting before I go off to the dentist. Pretty run of the mill, as a day goes, but I know Iāll feel a sense of achievement this evening.