m gonna say summat you may be surprised at...but I cant shake off this feeling and mental attitude. It has to be shaken off, cos there is absochuffinlutely no point in what I`m gonna say.
m just having a rant. ive told those close to me, but they can
t help, they dont really understand how I feel like you do...How can they? Theyre not in my position…but they are all so caring and look after me so well. I feel guilty if I continue to tell them how I feel. I had a melt down last friday…they were shocked, carers were empathetic, hubby was furious with me…so what am I chuntering about? here goes…and I KNOW you will all get it…
I am bloody, sodding, chuffing FED UP of being disabled!!!
There now! And there ain
t a damn thing I can do about it. In the 17 or so years Ive had this hsp crap, I
ve managed to keep upbeat (most of the time), but I have this overwhelming cloud around me.....innit someone elses turn for a few days in my wheelchair, with my supra pubic catheter, with bowels that have a mind of their own, with my so heavy mottled legs…etc etc etc…
Just tell me it
ll pass.............Ill feel better…I know there
s only me who can shrug this black time off.....I dont need a doctors prescription for anit-depressants…I dont want them.
Tell me off if you like!