Hello Mrs J,
i’m so sorry that you are having such a hard time…sometimes i think the dark depressive feelings are worse than the ms , although they must be linked so closely together, there are days when i feel so ill that are followed by really low sad feelings of fear and dread…my cbt lady helped …she said that i was allowed to feel sad some days and to remember that it would pass…, i have to say that iv’e not perfected it yet…but just telling my self that the black fog will lift does help a little.
Another thing that i try to do is to focus on things that don’t require any energy…like you when the black feeling is there i can’t read or watch tv… i feel completely flattened, i lie near the window and watch the birds, i never had the time for them before i was ill, but now i love them… just watching the sparrows and blue tits, does something amazing for me, and i’m not sure why but my spirit lifts just a little bit. Lee has made feeders for them and we have suet balls and seeds.
Having Frazer is also a big help, its the positive endorphins just stroking him or lying my head on him really helps. Have you got a pet? i know its not always possible to have one but after reading Pats messages…you can see Dickie has made such a difference to her.
Sending a Big Hug…Hang on in there my friend…we are all here for you.
Love Michelle x