Yesterday the wife and I went scuba diving at our local pool lthough today I am suffering for it!
I feel like a failure though, As we left the Dive shop stepping out onto the pavement of the small town centre I glimps out the corner of my eye someone whizzing along on their bike and I shouted stop and tried to get back to my wife but it was too late, he rode his bike straight into her and knocked her over! clean off her feet.
I made sure she was alright and helped her up best I could before launching into the biggest verbal assault known to man, This guy didnt appoagise, he said that she should have looked where she was going, (she was walking out of a bloody shop!) I was edging closer and closer to him, I was going to wrap my walking stick round his F"""" throat, but then told him to go.
I felt I had let my wife down, I wanted to hit him so hard, I am not a violent person but I hate the way society is today, this guy was in his late 20s he didnt care at all. It made me sick, but what could I really do? Walking with my stick, wobbling along, I couldnt defend my wife, I certainly could defend myself and I feel terrible for it.
Sorry to ramble but im frustrated and angry and as my wife said, Tom if you had a bang round the head we dont know what that could do to you, fair point but I know what a bang around the chops would have done to the other guy!
I just feel sad and pathetic, I try to keep to motivated and calm but this really did set something off in me, How could i protect my family, do I buy a gun? do I put CCTV camera up everywhere just incase, it may sound mental but im 27, 6,1 and 14.7 st, At one point I was confident that if needed to I could punch very hard, or run very fast, now I cant do either. Again im not a violent person, I actually hate confrontation but its important I can protect my wife, our home, and eventually our kids.