Just having a sad day, feel overwhelmed, Lee has gone away with work, The children have been off Ben 18 year old with aspergers has not coped well the lack of routine of college and the stress of exams have given us some real issues he had a major melt down this morning and i feel so sorry for him but don’t feel iv’e got the physical or emotional energy to cope, i love him so much but i was scared that he was going to break something, we used to have holes in the walls caused by big episodes of depression and frustration in the past but he’s been so much better recently, Mollys also out of routine she has the learning difficulties as well as autism thankfully shes had a couple of days at a special needs group she’l be back about 3.30 .
Ever heard the saying “Stop the world i want to get off” i’m just so tired…missing Lee like crazy. Had to crawl on the bus again yesterday just fed up with the injustice of it. and now just had a phone call from grants lady…don’t they just love asking a bunch of intrusive questions…I hate it so much…I hate it when i feel i have to justify things (No I haven’t got any savings) ( yes I am genuine!) apparently she remembers me from a few years ago when she came to see Ben, and “I looked fine then” … give me my old life back my battered old van and my legs that could run miles around my sons paper round!!!
Just feeling sorry for myself.