Well that was an eventful day.. with my eyesight not too bad today, and tremors that didnt seem bad, I decided I would be able to drive to asda and do a little shopping.
What a mistake that was! I think the effort of getting there (bout 5 mins in the car) was a bit too much.. so as I stumbled out of my car I was thinking, 'ok, get a trolley to lean on, but Im here now, so get on with it.' My own personal pep talk over with, I did indeed get a trolley, picked up a couple of bits, felt dizzy, left leg decided to go numb, right arm decided to start jerking all over the place; so there was I stumbling, leaning and jerking and feeling like a complete wally!
So, I gave up and went to the checkout. Managed to put the 4 things into a bag, then came time to pay :s Well, my brain thought otherwise.. I totally forgot my pin number, and right arm jerking so much even if I did remember it I wouldnt have been able to type it in. People in the queue looking at me like Im some kind of idiot as I stand there blank faced trying to remember my pin. Gave up on that, and luckily I had enough cash on me, so paid, but as I walked away (red faced) I distinctly heard the woman behind me call me a 'lush' and that I was p*ssed :( With my fuddled brain and the embarrasment of it all, I couldnt even think of a great retort (very unlike me!).
How on earth do people who have got MS (I do not have a dx) get 'used' to being judged by ignorant people? And how do people with neurological problems leave the house? Ive sat at home for weeks, and now I fear going out on my own.