Sorry it’s just how I feel today, hopefully when I wake up tomorrow I will be back in fighting mode but for now I just want to crawl under a rock and disappear.
Don, there is a whole myriad of responses to this.
All I’m going to say is give yourself a bit more time. This is a true ba$tard of a condition. But it is just a brute. Remember, we have the brains and the citalopram. If you feel like you need a higher dose then go for it.
A bit of acceptance of your current slough of despond can give you some sense of perspective but remember we can always rise above it. Use it as a starting block. Now I’ll stop these inane platitudes; I’ve sat through too many teacher training days.
Think bacon butties. I’ve just taken some streaky out of the freezer.
HI Don Your blog genuinely bought tears to my eyes! I feel I have nothing inspiring or motivating to say but I couldn’t read that and run. I have rrms and there are days I feel robbed I’m 26 with a body that well isn’t. It’s a ba@$!*# of a disease!! Really hope you are able to pick up from where you find yourself at the moment and life deals you and your family a ‘good’ card soon to really shake things up a bit! Please don’t crawl under a rock and disappear on us, I for one am happy to have made such an acquaintance albeit in sad circumstances Flutterby x
Oh Don. Has anyone ever told you you’re allowed to cry? It really is a necessity actually. View it as a pressure cooker. Some of the anger/sadness/dismay/grief/despair et al needs to be released or the lid will give in to the pressure build up, and end up on the ceiling. I don’t know what to say but like others, I read the blog and just wanted to give a virtual squeeze to your arm.
I know I felt like this one day during the week. I found myself sobbing in my kitchen over the damn cat. Damn cat! - Everyday living - MS Society UK | Forum I have only been dxd for, not quite two years, and it has raced through my life like the proverbial dose of salts. I admire your upbeat endurance for 25! I have always been the glass half empty type of person. Now I have to make a superhuman effort to be the “I can still refill the glass!”, type.
Hopefully, when the sun shines again, which it will, the world, your world, will seem a brighter place. Now I’m going to go and play Dire Straits, Brothers in Arms. Why Worry being one of my favourite tracks.