Hi all
Like most at beginning of diagnosis type journey , continue to torture myself with the what if’s and spend lots (too much time )preoccupied at possibiliities/likliehoods
Finally got hold GP …who wants to see me face to face which is good, but obviously not good in some other respects given visits had ground to a halt by and large and agrees even on phone onward referral to neuro likely needed but wants see me too
Last night had horrid sleep - mainly due to sensations, and a bit of strange twitching in shoulder, and some NEW strange sensation in foot which is not buzzing or vibrating but almost like the feeling you would get if touching a table when laptop is on. All set to increasing anxiety and preoccupation. To add to insult to it all was up about 6 x for toilet which is not usual - even on nights when not sleeping well. Not diabetes related as checked and was thinking that this has happened few times but obviously not joined any dots as nothing ‘else’ going on at same time and blamed various things (hormones etc) then. Now thinking this re lightheaded spells too - which they have blamed on likely migraine/dont know what causes it but again joning dots which if so, means its been around longer than i have been aware
I know bladder probs are common (horrified to read 80% get it?!!) but not sure if would be a symptom or not at this point or this issue. Not got any of severity eg immediate urge , not making it, or not passing anything when I go. In saying that if you go frequently you do run out I assume so cant say if its this or it is a retention problem and know that often worst case scenario is outlined in symptoms
After a night of it, was bit irritated and burny this morning so was praying it was UTI which i dont actually get a lot. Going to ask for antib.x for UTI anyway to rule it out though not got any symptoms re pain, fever, odours etc
When you are bursting of course bladder pressure does get worse but i don’t feel this and what is a low level pressure in bladder area - makes me feel like I need to go but as i say, I can hold it in and have not tried to repeatedly go. It doesn’t get worse or better in severity - just constant
So, would this be an ‘earlier’ type symptom? Reading is so helpful but at the same time tortures you and message is that everyone is different. Are these symptoms always really severe or can they be milder like this
Feel so bad as increasingly tearful at thought of it and then feel that’s offensive to those who endure and deal with it already. I just know i am not going to cope if it is