Hello, i posted on here ladt week about difficult situation as no fixed abode and no job, but not quite feeling well enough for a job, but still wanting to work. This week ive generally felt worse and worse. Im at my mums this week, and feel obliged to help, cook, etc as she is at work.Trouble is im sooo tired and feel so rough. All i did this morning was drive her to the station (she is away gir the weekend so i’m looking after my step dsd who has parkinsons) and did the grocery shop. Then when i hot back i completely lost it at my partner. No reason. But recently when iget tired i loose it. Just cant cope. Thing is my upbringing was goid but strict. You did not sit down if someone else was busy. Then my job as a nanny is to cook and make the family life as smooth as possible, so do all the house hold jobs and wait on others. I have this built in guilt and cant let go. cant let anyone do iy for me. For if i di that takes away my worth and i just become a burden. I have also realised a few more things about ms and was convinced i would be one of the lucky few who had a few relapses then it sll went away. Now realize thats not the case and its here to stay and what with stress of no house/job/future i wanted, its all getting too much.
Any advice? Anc how do i stop loosing the plot over nothing
Thank you you kind people, sorry to moan!
I could be reading my story. Very strict but very good upbringing and as you we were always busy. I did the food shop yesterday, put it away then felt like I had done ten rounds in the ring. The house is never quiet, so trying to get some rest not on the cards. Sometimes feel a bit like a fraud, because nobody can see what it feels like. Was only dx last August so perhaps it’s still a bit early to get my head round it! I hope that you can get yourself sorted and try to realise that if you won’t to rant then just accept it smile and carry on, there’s nothing wrong with this in my opinion.
I’m the same as you but I’ve two little ones depending on me my arms are just in agony and I’m just doing the basics.
Hope you start to feel a bit better soon x
Sophie.p and Bilpat1, regarding the grocery shop, have you ever tried on line shopping, might take a bit of practice to get it set up and avoid the worst pitfalls but you could sit and shop on line and then it would be delivered, you would just have to put it away. Cheryl:-)
Thanks Cheryl, yes have done the shopping online, but find it more stressful than going round the supermarket, seem to forget more online! Don’t think it’s anything to do with MS just useless at the computer and shopping lol.
Thanks, shopping on line is a good idea and will once i have my own place, but just finding it difficult to adjust from the person who was non stop from 6.30 am -9pm, ive always had so much energy, no job to big, any one would ask me as i cant say no. Everyone could rely on me, So suddenly being unreliable, not able to do things its just taken away who i am and i hate it, but probably just have to get over it, hoping its a phase and blip and soon will be positive again. If i could just stop the anger outbursts for hardly any reason. Oh hum these things are sent to try us. And try us they do! What doesnt kill us makes us stronger! And we are not dead, so stronger we are getting!