I posted on here a few weeks ago. My husband walked out on me 4 weeks ago, and Im still crying.My friends and family have been a great support and so have the people who kindly replied / responded to my first post.
Im slowly getting things sorted but its REALLY difficult. Ive been keeping busy, decorating and am back at work tomorrow.
We both work for the same organisation and people who dont know the situation ask about him. which is a KILLER
I just cant understand how my husband is just carrying on as normal as if NOTHING has changed. He starts a new job this week and he needs to be focused but how can he with all this going on ? He is best man at a wedding on thursday. A lot of the guests are our mutual friends and they will all wonder where I am. As of ~Thursday our seperation will become very public (because of the wedding situation).
I am hurting. Im devestated. Im losing weight. I am not sleeping very well and I am still crying.
How can he just ‘carry on as normal’ ? Please someone tell me as I just cant understand it.
Im hating myself, and I am blaming myself for this situation and I am also blaming the MS as this makes me so insecure. Husband says that the MS has nothing to do with our seperation, but deep deep down, I think it does.
I feel as if he is ‘free’ now of me and the house, all his responsibilities and he has got free reign to ‘start again’.
Sorry - but I need to get all this out.