Well its 2 months now since my husband walked out on me and the boys. Im still crying a bit, but only when I talk about him, and when I hear a song on the radio that reminds me of him.
He is now refusing to speak to me, even on email. I have deleted his number off my phone as he does not reply to my texts.
Hes coming round on Thursdasy to collect some paperwrk from the loft and then to clear the garage of all his tools.
Im still struggling to understand how we got to this point in our marriage/relationship.
Now is the time that we could of been spending more time together as my eldest is at University and the youngest has got a girlfriend so he is not at home much now. So im just sat at home on my own, or doing housework and if Im now doing that then Im at work.
The hardest thing is being on my own at home in the evenings. I have no one to talk to and Im shattered after doing all the jobs now that we used to share… cooking and general stuff.
Ive taken off my wedding ring and engagemnt ring which was a hard thing to do.
Im very bitter and angry at him for doing this to us. But I just cant understand why he refuses to speak to me. Someone has said to me that his silence is his guilt, and he is just carrying on as if nothing has happened ! 11 years just mean nothing to him and its as if someone has deleted me out of his life.
Can someone explain it to me because I cant understand it !
My mom said to me ‘we cant move on until you stop crying’ and I nearly put the phone down on her… but that would really not of helped my situation.
Im going out to lunch with my sister today which Im looking forward to.