After the failure of my spinal cord stimulator implant to reduce neuropathic pain I am desperately distressed and hopeless. It was my last chance. For years beforehand I have tried EVERY possible drug to no avail. Many I couldnt tolerate because of my dry eyes - some drugs are very drying such as amitriptyline; I can only go up to 20mg on that so have never been able to establish if a higher dose would have worked.
I feel my future is very bleak. My pain levels for eleven years is severe and the thought of living like this for maybe 30 + years is bleak and I just will n ot carry on like this.
I cant take pleasure in my grandchildren or anything really - pain wipes it out. I dont want to leave them but I know I will have to go early - Zurich is increasingly on the horizon.
I agreed to try anti-depressants because my daughter wants me to give that a try. However the first I have tried (forgotten its name) had really eye drying properties which wake me up and kick off the pain instantly.
Other people on forums say it stops them sleeping. This is a no-no for me; if I dont sleep I will be in agony for all of the following day from the moment I wake. A good nights sleep means I have a window pain free or low level for a few hours after I get up.
Has anyone got any suggestions and advice? I need the drug for depression and anxiety.
With thanks in advance