Still sinking in for me too. The date 6th April 2011 will never go away especially as all came out of the blue 5 weeks of symptoms, 2 MRI scans thinking it was disc problem hey presto diagnosis.
I am fine most of the time but there is always the odd moment when it hits that things won’t quite be the same again. My moment was phoning the insurers last week as we are looking to move home and our financial advisor told me to phone them, I thought what’s the point so delayed it as I am still working full time, driving and from the outside I look fine! I think sometimes that bit is the hardest that people can’t see the fatigue and headaches. Although I keep saying to myself shut up and get on with it, if this is as bad as it gets be grateful as if I start thinking about what might happen I will end up there alot quicker.
I finally phoned them on Monday and after 45 mins of talking to them lots of feelings were brought to the surface. As did my little girl saying to my husband when ‘Mummy takes me to the beach can we play tag’ and my husband saying ’ No darling Mummy can’t run around but you can do sandcastles with Mummy’.
My left leg is still a bit clumpy at times so I wouldn’t feel safe but it has improved since starting phsyio once a week.
I hope you have lots of lovely people around you to help you on those days when we feel like our worlds are upside down.