I replied to a post when they said they felt like giving up - I replied.
WARNING SOME OF MY LIFE DTAILED
100% I feel like giving up. 21 blind- eventually came back - diagnosed aged 24! Taken off Beta Inteferon because liver was failing, heart surgery at 33 -IV Steroids caused my heart to stop!! was told it would take 30 mins -took over 3 hours - even felt surgeon stitching my chest back up. Psedomonas off legs - fitted a large catheter rather than a smaller one - leaving me nowhere to go because urethra has stretched!! Sizeable pulmonary embalisms both lungs, pleurisy and collapsed lung!! Off legs for nearly 2 years and managed to learn to walk again and then 2 years, 2 months and 22 days ago the physios were due to bring zimmer round.
I WAS SO CLOSE - then the wheelchair malfunctioned catapulted me in the air and smashed me on the brick driveway- I WAS PROMISED after surgery they would get me up and walking.
Knee smashed in many places, 13 hours of surgery, first time of getting covid on filthy trauma ward, anaphylaxis, HUGE mess up with blood transfusions.
The NHS dropped me for physio, got a private one - he hurt me- been doing nothing but try tp recruit one.
My husband 21 years anniversary tomorrow is now my main carer and that kills me- the things he has to do for me is repulsive - im ceiling tacked hoist - ive been neglected by Occupational Therapists by Council - the slings ive got are condemned and even safeguarding havent contacted me. Ive had to put cameras in every room of my property because of incompetent, verbally abusive and physically hurt me district nurses.
Technically Ive died a few times to say the least - Im so close to giving up - it hurts - whats stopping me - IM LIKE A BOXER IN THE RING THAT KEEPS BEING PUNCHED AND GETS BACK UP AGAIN!!
I JUST WON’T STAY DOWN.
