Last year when I had my first relapse I was chewing away on a toffee, doing something on my computer, oblivious to the world. Suddenly for reasons I don't know mid chew It slipped down my throat, blocked my airway and I began choking....got the fright of my life!
For about ten seconds I sat their trying to breath in, thinking oh god, oh god, oh god this is it....felt like I was done and I began thinking how my partner would find me lying on the floor. Suddenly I coughed and while for the next few minutes it was a struggle I managed to heave some air into my lungs and slowly felt the toffee sliding down.
For about two weeks after that I had a tightness in my breast whenever I breathed in, which at the time I assumed must be the toffee sitting in my left lung. That feeling has gone now but funnily enough, I haven't tried eating a toffee since!
I often have some pause for effort when swallowing although thankfully never any actual choking since then. Strangely my biggest problem is occasionaly, once every 1-2months I accidently swallow/breath saliva or liquid, this causes me to panic, my wind pipe contracting and my attempt to draw breath sounds very laboured and hard. This lasts a few minutes of me trying to tell myself I'm not actually dying and eventually I get over it and am fine again.
My biggest fear, is now choking to death, it scares me because of the toffee incident, because it can happen any time I put food in my mouth and because I know if it does happen, it won't be quick, i'll know it's happening and for maybe a few minutes I'll be alive and there's nothing much I can do to save myself.
I'm dealing with it, mostly by trying to ignore it lol, If I feel I'm having to think about swallowing I need to stop drinking or eating for a bit and just relax, it seems if I think about it, it causes me problems.