Hi Shellie, this sounds so familiar, im going through the same emotions and feelings. In so much pain and nobody understands except on here. Not even the neuro or MS nurse seem interested so have just resigned my self after almost a year in pain that this is my lot and i have just to accept that this pain is here to stay. as its nerve pain there are no obvious signs. So I can really relate to the feeling of being low
I do hope your soon feeling better
Sending Big Huggs
Kim xx
Thank you Kim, I hope your brighter soon too. I’m off to occupational health this morning, get bullied again about work! 
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Do you know me? Everything I’ve read I’ve been through. I was very independant befor the MS and still want to be! Had to give up so much!!! My husband no longer works and does lots to help me. Feel really bad & should be so thankful. I get very depressed though, is it because I can no longer cope?
(Have sms) HELP xxx
Flossylol, I didn’t realise until I joined this forum, that most MSers go through the same stuff as me, You feel so alone sometimes, even in a house full of people. I can only explain it, like a grieving process? The life you once had, running here there and everywhere is suddenly over, but with the right support, it doesn’t have to be that way.
Like you, I felt so low and bad and aggresive a short time ago, everything was a constant struggle, I’m stronger now, for me I stopped fighting the emotions, feelings etc, and just rode with it, So I didnt feel I was fighting a constant battle! I also sat my family down, and let them read my posts on here, they were shocked, didn’t realise that’s how I was feeling, as I’m not very good at saying it, as I feel a useless, winging crapbag. Slowly things are getting better. This forum has helped me no end, I hope you find support and comfort too xxxx
hi shellie
i so understand what you are going through.
the worse thing for me is that i feel guilty for not being able to provide security for my family.
hubby isnt working, youngest son (24) isnt working either.
eldest (25) is setting up a business but income isnt happening.
i got medical retirement and my occupational pension is the only thing paying the bills.
i’ve got a massive overdraft and no way of paying it off
but nobody ever died of an overdraft so i’ll just have to get on with it
carole xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Your so right Carole, I’m waiting to see if I’ll get medical retirement, it’s all going on now, so hopefully??? I’m trying to stay positive more than I used to (as I didn’t care, not so long ago) and focus on all the good stuff, it’s working 
Wishing you all the best
I liked your comment “nobody died of an overdraft” made me smile xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Thankyou Shellie46 for your support - yes I do feel alone sometimes, I have been accepted for counselling and hope that helps. I think that your courage was brilliant in letting your family see the forum. Well done.
However I feel though the smile is there, that is mine! To put it mildly, MS is a pain isn’t it? Still whatever I keep smiling (sometimes) xxx
Thankyou Shellie46 for your support - yes I do feel alone sometimes, I have been accepted for counselling and hope that helps. I think that your courage was brilliant in letting your family see the forum. Well done.
However I feel though the smile is there, that is mine! To put it mildly, MS is a pain isn’t it? Still whatever I keep smiling (sometimes) xxx