I was diagnosed in October 2000, with relapsing-remitting MS and it’s probably now secondary progressive. I’ve experienced lots of different symptoms - optic neuritis,balance, nausea, slurred speech, bladder and others - my last significant relapse (when I was in ICU) was about 6 years ago, just after I split up from my ex. I had just bought a new house as a result of our split. I don’t think the house move/ splt was the cause of the relapse but maybe I’m wrong(!) We have 2 boys, 16 (nearly 17) and 13.
Often I am stressed at work, which sometimes requires complex mathematical problem solving. Maybe my cognition has been affected by MS. To be honest I am worried about my future - I do find it difficult to talk to anyone at work about this for fear of being labelled. Ironic because I work for a multi national, the world’s largest in its sector, which advises other companies on human resources, employee remuneration, pensions, amongst other services.
My feeling about work is that they don’t really care, as long as the job is done to their satifaction. All they care about is the bottom line and I suppose it’s hardly surprising but they are quite ruthless. Redundancies and payoffs are a regular feature. Of course in my case I believe they do realise they can’t just make me redundant so the only way to save costs is to not give me a pay rise…for the last 10 years (!!). Effectively I have grounds for constructive dismissal but I don’t want to leave my job, mainly because I’d have difficulty getting another.
During a period of redundancies last year, they did try to put me on PHI as an alternative but I managed to stay put after asking too many awkward questions about the whole process, which they couldn’t or wouldn’t answer. I had that hanging over my head for 6 months last year, before an up turn in our business meant that the need for any further redundancies (or in my case PHI) just disappeared.
I’m not with a long term partner. I do have a problem with cumming. I think I’m relaxed and not stressed durig sex, but maybe not? Being with someone for the first time makes it tricky (especially as I get older), let alone the MS. In fact I don’t think I’ve cum during sex in the last 3 years! I’m sure it’s psychological as I do cum when I masturbate.
With all the work problems, is it any wonder that I can’t cum during sex??
Lately I have used viagra and I can get an erection but I think I’ve lost some feeling down there.
(sorry for the long winded rant)