After several scans and the possibility of MS on the horizon, I am due to get the results this Friday. For the last few weeks I have ate, slept and breathed about the possible diagnosis, I have gleaned so much information about MS and the confusion and difficulties of being diagnosed that I feel I am I walking encyclopedia on the subject but in reality I Know nothing. I Have gone from convincing myself I could have MS then couldn’t possibly have it to haveing it and then not having it etc etc etc and second guessing every possible reason as to why my neurologist wants to see me in person,to the point my brain might implode. I have gone from crying and feeling doomed and wanting to throw myself on the motorway to feeling euphoric that I’m lucky enough to walk this earth and experience the wonders of life! It’s a strange set of emotions during the agony of waiting and appreciate I’m not alone!!! Should I get the dreaded diagnosis, I’m hoping that someone can offer some sensible advice on how to deal with it and how to find some positivity from it all. I have been on this site recently and it has helped enormously with previous advice. I’d would also like to think that further down the line, I could offer someone the same support Thank you 
Xx
Don’t throw yourself on the motorway…think of the mess…you’ll look awful
Good luck for Friday, whichever way it goes.
I personally felt relief to have answers for my symptoms. It wasn’t long before the shock set in and then I had some very down days I’m afraid. Its a bit like going through the grieving process. I’m back on track now though and feeling my usual positive self…just needed a bit of fine tuning
If you are diagnosed with MS, you will handle it in your own way…I’m not about to tell you how you will feel. Having a good support system round you is important. Never be to proud to ask for help and be kind to yourself.
Take care
hi Beckybluecat
Geez I really could have written your post myself as I feel the exact same as you do with a minefield of emotions about it all, although I fear in my case a definite diagnosis may still be a long way off! Like Blossom said it can be a bit of a relief to have confirmation of whats causing your symptoms and at least with diagnosis you know what your dealing with to allow you to start to cope with the disease and heal in a sense i suppose.
I guess we all have to take things just one step at a time, I find this site to be a huge help too, good luck with the results on Friday - keep us posted!
Karen
hi Beckybluecat
Geez I really could have written your post myself as I feel the exact same as you do with a minefield of emotions about it all, although I fear in my case a definite diagnosis may still be a long way off! Like Blossom said it can be a bit of a relief to have confirmation of whats causing your symptoms and at least with diagnosis you know what your dealing with to allow you to start to cope with the disease and heal in a sense i suppose.
I guess we all have to take things just one step at a time, I find this site to be a huge help too, good luck with the results on Friday - keep us posted!
Karen
Thank you for all your replies,
it really helps to have other peoples views and experiences and knw Im not alone with how I feel.
I guess I wont be throwing myself on the motorway as there are enough traffic issues as there is lol ! :0
I will be taking my partner with me as I probaly will want to stick my fingers in my ears an go ‘la la la I cant hear you’
and a least a diagnsis will help me move in the right direction and there wont be a big ‘stop’ sign on my life after Friday.
I really appreciate your support
Becky
xx
Thank you for all your replies
(just tried to post a reply but think its disappeared)
I really appreciate your replies and advice and also good to know Im not alone in how I feel with a mixed array of emotions.
I will be taking my partner with me on Fri, as I am tempted to stick my fingers in my ears and go ‘la la la I cant hear you’
but I do realise that after Fri, there wont suddenly be a huge ‘stop’ sign on my life, I will still be able to go to the pub, tesco etc but it will be a step nearer to whatever will be
thanks again an appreciate your support xxxx