I’m desperate to retire from the NHS. I’m 40 years old.
I drag myself in every day. I’ve had AtW help and adjustments twice but I can’t do it anymore. I walk with two sticks over very short distances, use a scooter or wheelchair when out of the house. Numb feet, extreme fatigue and balance is totally shot.
I feel bad because it’s almost as if I’m planning when to go off and leave but I’ve had enough. I have a young family and I do nothing with them because all my energy is spent working 3 days a week.
But the paralympics is making me feel so bad. I look at these people doing amazing things and wonder whats wrong with me?
Just having a rant. I’m going anon because I dont want people to know what my plans are, sorry…