I have an appointment with my Neurologist today.It is the first since I have had my brain and cervical MRI where ‘areas of high signal’ were found and my lumbar puncture was subsequently arranged because of this.
I am just scared that he will say there is nothing wrong and that it is all in my head and send me away-especially as I am feeling a lot better at the moment (typical!) and find it hard to put into words how I ‘was’ feeling,
I feel like i might end up today back at the beginning which to me is a bigger fear than any diagnosis might be! My husband although incredibly supportive doesn’t get it. He thinks that it will be brilliant if the doctor says I am fine and on one level he is right. but surely that would mean the problem is ‘me’ and I have imagined my symptoms?
Sorry for the negativity…just think some of you will understand how I feel today in a way that nobody in the ‘non limboland’ can!!!