RAH!!
I want to start by saying I really am not ungrateful and I know how lucky I am to have such lovely bosses and colleagues!
Today, and many other days, I have been sent home from work again.
I wasn’t 100% when I went in but nothing acutely wrong just the normal turned up a little bit and very tired.
I saw one of the bosses who commented I looked dazed I said I was just tired because it’s true.
The day progresses and I am struggling with dizziness and fog and tired … I put my head in my hands while I am spinning, close my eyes and wait for it to pass… in walks the same boss who insists I go home.
I can’t be bothered with the argument so I agree to work at home, then I am told to call my line manager which I do who insists I do not work when home, erm okay? I was happy to but okay.
Then I get “how are you getting home?” “Can you drive?” to which I obviously answer yes and a tete a tete ensues as we debate the merits of me driving home. “what if your leg goes?” I said my neuro has deemed I can drive as well as the DVLA
Anyway I drove home, now I am upset.
I know how this looks and really I am not ungrateful I just wish decisions were just mine. Why am I sent home to feel like I am useless when actually 5 mins and a cup of tea would have done the trick.
Why do I have to justify my decision and qualification to drive. I am a mom and grown woman and not an idiot.
Now I feel on the scrap heap and I am worried about my absence from work and their interest in me driving. I will sit here and wind myself straight up worrying.
I have just done a fields test and my first mri since DMDs so it is probably worrying about those that is stressing me
I am poorly every day and in pain as we all are they can’t keep sending me home ! I am doing my job. I work from home sometimes because I need to but at least that’s my choice !
Sorry I know this is pathetic when our lovely Sssue is recuperating and our Poll has had such a hard time lately
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