HI,I just wanted to make some contact really,haven’t been on here for a while.
Have been off work for 3 months after first major relapse including hospital stay, which thought was recovering from,then consultant told me was having another with new symptoms( had been trying to ignore). Last few weeks have been hell with 2 chldn(1 on autistic spectrum) and hubby who just can’t understand and as I look ok then it’s all just fine. I am like a zombie trapped inside my body,I see and hear but not react like I should
I’m fighting a huge wave of fear that am losing control of my life and I won’t have the strength or ability to get my life in order. It’s that constant questioning of symptoms,is this temporary or am I stuck with this now? I have tried to be so positive since dx 4yrs ago but just don’t have the energy, need all that to walk straight…
I’m not looking for sympathy,just wanted to vent as feeling really angry about this crappy situation. In my mind am rolling on the floor kicking and screaming “ITS NOT BLOODY FAIR!”