Well I went yesturday to my new neuro in london to get the results of my recent mri. Although 7 hrs in car round trip it was so worth it as I got everything explained fully to me which helps when considering treatments etc. So good and bad news. Good is that there is nothing new on my mri and np progression from 18 months ago, so either the copaxone helping or ive been in remission for that time. Although this is such good news I still feel down as I had it explained that as I was older when diagnosed (38) , I had motor issues ( arm didnt work) and the position of my moderate lesion load (know I have one in brain stem) I have a poorer prognosis…my local neuro said I was mild and borderline for dmds, which I insisted on. Glad I pushed and also glad I know acatually whats going on as hes said if I relapse or there are any changes on mri ( he will re mri in 10 months) I could go on a second line drug. I know im being well looked after and will get drugs I need but part of me is just sad about the whole issue of a poor prognosis, I know we dont know with ms and that things can change overnight but its hard to get non ms people to understand that although it was good news there is a reality that I will end up quite disabled… and thats not taking in the fact that even if I do well in the rrms stage if I go secondary progressive with the lesion load I have I will be in a right mess. He was surprised I had never felt off balance, dizzy etc which I presume comes from the brain stem lesion. Sorry for rambling just needed to get it off my chest with people that get the uncertainty . On a more positive note, thanks to tina for making me see sense on my last post. Hoilday booked anand off to turkey next week for hopefully a relaxing week.
Thanks zoe