I am currently going through a very bad phase in life health wise. I've started to notice that I'm slowly turning in to a monster with my temper and I have a feeling it might boil over the top and I might end up getting myself in an ugly situation with consultants.
I have never been an angry and bitter person but the last six months have transformed my emotions and how I used to managed them. I have been very great with family members even elders getting very confrontational with them.
Sometimes I do not remember what I have done until a family member explains to me what I've just done, an example taking a swing with my walking aid at family members and even grabbing hold of a member by the neck and choking them.
I don't recall of any of these attacks but they have happened and family are willing to forgive and understand what I'm going through health wise and it's not in me anymore to control the rage.
The problem is I could end up getting in trouble with the police if this behaviour of mine continues and the last thing I need to do is attack consultants whom I feel have not been very helpful and not taking my concerns seriously.
In order to avoid getting myself in to a position that could result me in ending being arrested, I have decided to make the very hard decision to ring up hospitals and cancel all my appointments.
Is this is a good idea if not then what should I do?
I am desperate for any helpful advice and tips on how best to deal with my emotions.