I have been on holiday for the past 2 weeks with my 8 yr old daughter, my partner and his 2 boys which was brilliant, hardly had any episodes or none that were noticeable. However, I am back at work now and my symptoms are stronger and more noticeable than ever. Which is starting to freak me out Colleagues have noticed my speach is slurred, struggling to say what I want to say, I can’t type or write properly and have seen me looking spaced out. Forgetting what I am saying or losing track. I occasionally walk funny, my stomach is churning. It is more noticed now as my close friend at work has said she can see me struggling with it all. This is not good when I work in customer services and I am slurring to customers. In honesty she is right, I am struggling!! I could burst into tears and go home, I am wondering how professional I seem, questioning myself and my abilities??? My partner this morning when we were talking about it, has said he is worried for me as he too has noticed it more. I am trying to keep a brave front on and try to carry on as normal when infact in honesty, I am scared witless. I don’t see my specialist until 2 weeks, then I have no idea what they are going to say or do. It has scared me today, as the episodes are coming back with a vengeance and being more noticeable to colleagues at work. Close colleagues/friends know about MS but I have not made it known to my employers as I have not had a confirmed diagnosis. I know my GP has said she is most certain that I have MS and since I had my referral I have not been back to see her. I don’t know whether I should, I don’t think there is anything she can do until I have seen the specialist.
Feeling a bit out of sorts today and most certainly not myself, feel like my body has been invaded (if that makes sense) I am sure I am not the only person and any advise how to cope would be really appreciated. I didn’t expect things to get worse this quickly, thought it would be over a period of time. Bit shocked really.