So… I’ve been with my husband for 10 years and we have 2 perfect children. On the outside, we have the perfect life although things have become a massive pressure cooker. I was diagnosed in 2017 when my children were aged 2 and 4. I had to stop my well paid, full time job as I couldn’t keep up with the pace. I then worked part time for a charity, and they treated me very badly and pushed me out (not without a fight). This happened in April. I have retrained and now work on a self employed basis but earn a very low income as a pilates teacher.
We have had sex twice this year. The main reason isn’t do do with my MS - it’s about the way he makes me feel bout myself. He makes me feel stupid (i get my words muddled up now and the right word doesn’t always come out), I am constantly exhausted, and because he is so emotionally cold towards me the last thing on my mind is putting it out to him.
He has said that he wants to seek gratification elsewhere and that he could ‘easily’ find happiness elsewhere. It’s alright for him. He’s got his own job as an architect, he’s good looking, and self-confident. I don’t feel the same about myself and feel broken and very very sad indeed.
I don’t know where to start in terms of going legal/moving out/what my rights are etc… I have just started counselling as this has been brewing for a little while so I’m relieved to have some external support.
I am also either relapsing or having a flare up. None of this is helpful to MS and I have lots of fear.