Sorry, and welcome. It’s not a very exclusive club I’m afraid
It’s my 4th anniversary this month of my diagnosis and I just want to reassure you that things will probably settle down and you will find a ‘new normal’. I didn’t believe that at first when I was getting over a nasty relapse but looking back I wish I had found this forum at that time. The best people who understand are the people who live with MS. Eventually I joined my local MS branch and found that talking to people who had been in the same situation was the most cathartic process ever. Up to that point I had been Mrs Angry!
Don’t listen to everyone who ‘knows someone with MS’. Lots of them will tell you worst case scenarios - I don’t know why they do that to someone who is scared and confused and new to all this, they think they are being helpful but they are not. Just ignore all of it. Every person’s MS is different, it is your MS and it will not be the same as anyone else’s, there will be similarities and differences, of course, but it will be as unique as you are.
I was relapse free from October 2009 until this week and I have been fairly well in all that time. I still work 30 hours pw in the day and work from home p/t in the evenings at a typing job which is ad hoc and my second employer has MS himself so is very understanding if it doesn’t get done very quickly! Sometimes I just need to sleep and he understands that. As he says at least we will not die of heart attacks as we cannot rush around enough for that !!
Life goes on, make adjustments when you need to, be kind to yourself, rest when you need to, listen to your body and let others help when they want to.