Why is it getting so hard to force myself to do the most trivial and routine things? OK, it’s a rhetorical question - I do know it’s part of the MS that small tasks often feel like mountains.
I now HATE going to the doctor, because they took the direct bus off, so I’ve got a 15-minute walk and then still a bus-ride.
Yes, there are closer GPs - as the crow flies - but I worked out those would not be any better, as they are not walking distance either, or on a direct bus route, so I didn’t think I would change anything for the better by switching.
So for some time now, I’ve been getting little notes on my repeat prescriptions, saying I’m overdue for a medication review (which I’m sure will turn out just to be a blood-pressure check for the contraceptive pill, as I’m 48…) and a reminder that I’m entitled to my flu’ jab, and please get in touch to book.
I’ve been putting these off and putting them off - partly because I’ve had an excruciatingly painful back the past week or two - which probably needed the doctor in its own right, only it was too painful to face the 15-minute walk, and sitting on a bumpy bus.
Also I thought the chances were slim that I would be able to arrange both for a single visit, so thought I’d end up having to attend twice for two routine things! TWO painful trips out in the cold.
Anyway, I must finally have been feeling a bit better today (touching wood as I type this), because I finally grasped the nettle and rang the doctor’s. Explained the situation - that I have MS, that I need to attend for two routine things, and there’s no direct bus any more, so could they please try to fix them for a single visit. To my surprise, they said: “Oh yes, that sounds much more sensible - we should be able to do it!” and I’m booked in for both on 27th November.
That means there’s still another couple of weeks for the back to improve - hopefully - so I’m not panicking that I’ve got to go tomorrow. But it’s in the diary, and I’ve got plenty of time to prepare. I posted only recently, in another context, how I’m finding it almost impossible to do anything at short notice any more - I need to know ages before anything. Never heard any more about the college reunion, by the way - whether it went/is going ahead without me. I have a suspicion not, as I expected still to get the goss, even if I wasn’t going. Instead, not a word more has been said - by anyone - so I’m starting to draw my own conclusions. I’m sorry if my decision to quit has caused the other two to scrap the whole thing, but if somebody still won’t commit, less than a week before, and hasn’t given others time to arrange their transport or accommodation, what can they expect?