Like many of us, I’ve not been too good over the last week, so don’t intend to be all ‘woe is me’ when others are suffering too, but I just wann a have a winge and hopefully this get it out of my system and stop me crying.
I have been suffering with lower back pain and weak legs which led to me struggling with walking and climbing stairs. Went to see my MS nurse today who said that she is gonna test me for Vitamin D dificiency, to take more painkillers and although she knew I wouldn’t like it, but to take another week off work. She does not think I am having a relapse but more that I have injured my back in some way, but does think it is a wake up call and a warning that I may have been doing too much.
I do have an understanding boss who has been brill since I was finally diagnosed in August last year, but today when I went to see him about my nurse visit he suggested that I may need to think about my future and the possibility of working less days. I just burst into tears!! I have worked all of my life and very rarely have had a sick day so it has been hard for me to have 2 and a half days off sick this week already so the thought of cutting/slowing down is just not in my remit!
I think I am just struggling with the fact that I just cannot carry on the same way anymore and I do have to learn to slow it down some. I suppose it’s just the realisation that this MS IS REAL and there’s no putting it ‘on the back burner’ so to speak. I just haven’t stopped crying all afternoon, so now have a headache and need a hug. Sorry for the long moaning post - I know I’m not the only one though xx