WAY HEY HEY - I think I've fixed the problems I had!! I've had to create a new account and password so will be using this from now on but hopefully its worked so I can come on here whenever! For those of you that didn't see my other post - thank you ALL for your kind words. Its so nice to feel there are others out there that have bad and good days and who all feel like crying at times. I feel like friends with all of you.
I made a posistive step today - I was out with a friend and saw a 'normal' looking lady in a wheelchair so I gently approached her, got talking about her feelings and we ended up swapping emails and she said I could ask ANYTHING I wanted about my fears etc. All your responses have made me realise that IF I END UP WHEELIE BOUND its not the end of the world but the beginning of a new one where I can still get out - albeit slower!!
I think I've mourned a lot over the life I've had to more and more leave behind. For my honeymoon in 2003 I climbed Scafell Pike in the Lake District with my husband...har har har...no more!! Daddy will just have to take the kids whilst I have coffee at the bottom - but you've helped me realise that this is not the end - it just means mummy has to do this diffently.
I'm defo not depressed - took a self help online quiz and positively passed 13 out of 15 questions...I know its only a silly quiz but it proves to me I'm not.
Not taking drugs. Took (I think it was called) Gabapentin three years ago and took myself off cause they did nothing and I crashed the car three times in six months. So on nothing and don't feel I need to be.
Nothing has kicked off these feelings apart from being rubbish in this heat. I'm defo walking worse than last year so I've no idea if I'm developing progressive MS or not? Any ideas? Am I?
Well - hello and thanks again to you all - I hope I make friends. By the way - is this and English site? Where are you all based? I'm Bournemouth in England.