So this morning, I really felt like I needed to poo, when I had just got dressed. I went and sat on the loo and tried and tried. I could feel the poo, just peeking out but it wouldn’t come. I gave up and hobbled downstairs. I was wearing a big thick pad because I wet myself twice yesterday. When I got near the loo on the ground floor I could feel that poo - it really felt like it was coming out as I was walking. So I went and sat on the downstairs loo. Still no joy. I got up and went to make my breakfast - porridge, 2 minutes 10 seconds in the microwave. But I was so uncomfortable with that poo feeling like it was peeking out (and hurting where it was peeking) that I had to go and sit on the loo for a third time. Still no banana (so to speak). But by the time I had eaten my porridge, it was finally ready to come. It hurt as it came and felt big, but it probably wasn’t (went straight round the bend so I couldn’t see much of it). When I wiped my bum there was quite a lot of fresh blood. Yuck. I assume having the poo sit where it shouldn’t have been, poking out, for so long tore something up there. Doesn’t hurt now and no more blood when I went for a wee a few hours later (today I’m weeing every few hours - yesterday it felt like I was going every 45 minutes).
Then, 45 minutes ago, I tried to do my balance exercise - that is, standing in the corner with my feet as close together as I can manage, for 15 minutes. I try and do this every day but yesterday was too hectic for me to fit it in. When I did it on Monday, I fell over after 13 minutes. Today I fell over after 7 minutes. It’s very hard for me to get up when I fall. Maybe I’ll get my husband to put up a grab handle near where I do my exercise.
I am in a sorry state.