I am where you are now too.
After my husbands death my home was unmanageable so i got onto the council list and with support from MS nurse and team was moved into sheltered accommodation ground floor flat. It become quickly too small as my wheelchair seemed to grow over night and i had no where to store all my aids.
so i was off again this time to a bungalow. now my MS team think i would be better in adapted one, but for now not sure i could face moving again.
I get support i have had a cleaner with me for 12 years, she knows me well lol. she does all my cuboard organising, my washing and changes the bed. I am desperate to use my wheelchair in doors but too scared i might run my dog over.
i have a new sitting rollator which is good. my plates i have are recycled and you can drop them easily lol and they wont break.
with my rollator i can work in my kitchen as everything i need is to hand.
although i am facing a few things which will need to change. sink height for example. Is beyond me and even with a perching stool its hard work.
my place is an advert for aids lol. i have a low trolley with my halogen and kettle on it and can if i need to reach with my wheelchair. but i use the kettle only once a day and with care manage to put water in a flask for my coffee later. i had a hatchway fitted in between the kitchen and the sitting room, which is reachable if i was in a wheelchair. at the moment with rollator i can put stuff on the hatch, and retrieve it from the sitting room without carrying it and my chair is below the hatch by the side so it is just a case of lift off hatch, and put on side table next to chair.
I am struggling with the concept of only being in a chair. Even though its agony to drag my dead left leg along with me, I feel some how i should make that effort. My right side is ok, and i dont want to weaken it yet.
I dont know i am just blah blah blahing at the moment. Its hard I’m betwixt and between the decision of using wheelchair and move to adapted or carry on and just struggle but cope the best i can.