Sonia I really admire you. You seem to climb your hurdles really well. I’ve realised that retirement was appropriate for me. My work as a nurse was too stressful and physical. I did have a go at admin for nearly a year but it was too stressful with people phoning me at home at all hours and fatigue is a big part of my symptoms.
I’m also terrified that if I stop and allow the ms to take over, I’ll become worse off. I’ve turned my box room into a craft room and do all sorts of things. As I’ve no arty experience or ability I’m self taught, going through pictures in magazines, library books and the internet and just try things, sometimes with success. My best friend loves doing all this too and because neither of us have healthy budgets we trawl charity shops and buy old bedding, curtains and furniture and do them up. Last year my Christmas budget was extremely meagre so I made family and friends gifts like aprons, oven mitts and hand towels, shopping bags etc. I also enrolled on a sewing course and have learnt so many new techniques.
Anyway enough about me. I really do think you’re brave keeping your job which sounds quite demanding and stressful. It’s awful dragging yourself out of the house when you feel like you could sleep for a week, or phoning in when you really can’t make it, then spending the day unable to relax as you feel you’ve let them down. By the way, I hope you don’t mind me asking but what’s this clinic you’re going to for? If it’s personal I’m sorry, ignore me or tell me to mind my own business.
If I find a way I’ll send you some pics of my projects when they’re done.