I'm just thinking and not sure who to talk to.I've been unhappy at work for an age, too cold in winter, lack of holidays, no lunch breaks. my boss thinks that I should go in at 9.30, finish at 5 without leaving the premises all day.There are no facilities to make a drink, no water thats drinkable from the taps. a loo with no door handle and cold water for washing your hands.I have my lunch behind the desk inbetween serving customers.my boss had a go at me in Jan for talking to someone for too long.I've been there over 10 years and had never had a day off sick , covered holidays and understood that work is work.he said i shouldnt have friends in. this is impossible. we live in a small town . i know most of the people who come in and i'm always more aware not to spend too long talking to a friend and end up spending a lot more time with people i don't know.when i started with my symptoms i phoned nhs direct who sent an ambulance for me. i missed the morning at work but went in in the afternoon to make up my hours. this was after 4 hours in hospital having my heart checked and blood tests etc. the following week i made anearly appointment at my drs, had pins and needles all over and ms hug. this was before work but the dr sent me straight to hospital.Boss complained that the shop hadn't been opened on time and to be in on friday.
symptoms are now mainly in my hands and arms, but have lots of other things going on. eg concentration is rubbish, legs and hands randomly not doing what i want them to . the feeling of being bitten or burnt etc and i'm sure my boss thinks that i'm making it up.
i don't know anywhere that would employ me now but need to get out.
The same at home, while i was in hospital, my husband never visited and when i got home there was a pile of washing and everything to do.i feel like a doormat and all he talks about is how rubbish his life is.
i just want to walk out on it all but feel i should have done it sooner.is it too late. feel like i have a very uncertain future anyway. not the fresh start i'd have hoped for