Like many other people, I am currently experiencing an MS relapse, which, whilst I know is not the end of the world, nor even anything like it, I am struggling to deal with. Without wishing to bore anyone, I was diagnosed last October after almost a year of being pretty much ignored by Doctors and being told that my symptoms were in my head due to stress. I finally managed to switch doctors and suddenly everything changed. Within weeks I was referred for an MRI and finally diagnosed with RRMS. Strangely, this came as a relief to me, at least now I knew what was going on. After a relapse in January, things settled down and I’ve enjoyed a period of good health, until last Thursday. I managed to keep things to myself until Sunday when the changes in my balance etc became too obvious to hide. I then had to tell my husband that I thought I was having a relapse. Doctors appointments on Tuesday and again yesterday confirmed it. For no reason at all, I felt that the bottom had fallen out of my world.
Some many months of good health had allowed me to almost forget the MS, although my husband tells me that I have been in denial about it, which may or may not be the case, I just don’t know. I know that Relapses are all part of living with MS but I’ve been well for so many months that, stupidly, I was stunned to have a Relapse.
I know that it is silly to be feeling like this but I just can’t help it.
I would love to know how other people deal with it.