Well its that time and today after my Hydrotherapy yesterday and the pain its left me in today and correspondance of theres little doubt its MS from the neuro and MS Nurse saying i think you can take it as a confirmed diagnosis im in that limbo bubble do i inform DVLA and go from there or do i not tell the MS Nurse of my symptoms and risk not getting treated like i did with my eye which resulted in total loss of sight , now im faced with losing my licence my tracked truck and motorcycle entitlements ? so many question so little answers but i know what i must do but it dont feel like i wanna do it and that is ask for a confirmed diagnosis not a i think or theres little doubt but a yes it is now toddle off and tell dvla , in my lifee theres only been 1 thing i was any good at and that was driving hence the motorsport pastimes i did now i may lose the lot ? this is now festering as anger and frustration and my missus sheep is thinking its aimed at her my kids are giving me a wide berth as they know im about to fly , so many questions of what to ask and how to ask to get my answers damn it sucks and my respect goes out to anyone in or has been through this, sense tells me to tell them of my new symptoms and inform dvla and then fight to get my motorcycle part back but my heart is screaming noooo keep quiet shut up and let things just develop im torn between right and wrong and know i must do the right thing, im thee only 1 in my house that drives or rides, we have no car as we only have bikes, and we are 50 mins away from my hospital etc due to the ptsd im really fighting but not winning the public transport and loads of people boundaries that i need to cross and win over.
damn im confused sorry for the rant but i know no one that has ever gone through this my parents and misses sheep have been fantastic all the way and still are and you folks on here are too sorry for the rant but today is a hard day and 1 of realisation and decisions
rant over again apologies