I can't remember the last time I was able to walk properly , it was so long ago. With what began in the begining as a damaged cartlidge some 8 years ago , it moved on to different problems to what it's current version , which I've had for the last 2 years , of a pressure sensation in my inner thigh groin area which has caused my right foot to point out to the right instead of point forward like my left. This causes my stepping to be more like a Spanish lottery of staying on my feet rather than a step.
So a diagnosis? Well i've had the leg, back,hip and head MRi'd over this time .I try to explain the sensation to Dr's and I'm currently at the door of neurology. I say at the door , but it was April 2011 when i was last seen . We discussed my head scan and he couldn't confirm it was MS but he didn't say it was clear either . A lumber puncture would confirm it apparentlly . That was 28 th April 2011. I've rang , i've badged my Gp etc , and don't seem to be getting any further forward.
My leg is a mess . Walking against it's joints for so long with my leg pushing out to the right has caused both my hip joint and my knee cap to crunch and click against itself . The leg muscle in my right leg is non existent and so I have to pick my leg up to dress myself and move around.
Mentally I feel worthless and alone . i can't talk to anyone about my impending sentence . Being of once sound mind , its ground me down . I struggled to get through xmas and begged my GP to allow me to have some sort of counselling so that i can make some sense of the madness , but as always, that takes time as do everything else
I push and push for an answer all though i don't really want to know the answer as i'm so scared of what is on the horizon !
Is it normal to be waiting so long for a large needle to be put in your spine ?