Hello Everyone,
I am 42 years old and I have been trying to get a diagnosis of, well, something that will help me understand what is going on with my body for nearly 10 years! A friend mentioned MS and looking at the short films on this website, especially the references to fatigue and the information about symptoms becoming worse during menstruation really struck a chord with me.
Here’s (briefly) what happens to me. So far, I have been told it is Post Viral Fatigue (although that was 7 years ago!) very severe PMS and stress. I used to work in a very tick-ridden area, so I have had a test to rule out Lymes Disease (which my GP was very grudging about) Four years ago, I also had a Mirena fitted, which really did lessen the severity of the symptoms for a couple of years, but last year was awful and I really want to start the New Year with a more positive outlook!
Anyway, first the fatigue. It comes on slowly and feels like my forehead and around the bridge of my nose are hot and tingly. It almost feels as if there are things moving about under the skin! Accompanying that, I begin to feel as though I am coming down with a really bad cold / flu. I get incredibly tired - to the point where I literally can’t stay awake and focussed at my desk and if I am at home (fortunately, I can work from home) I just have to lie down for an hour or so and even then, it takes ages to wake up properly. I can also get what feels like a tight chest.
In meetings, or whenever I sit for long periods, I can really struggle to stay awake. This can be embarassing (lots of kneck-jerking and trying to yawn discreetly) I can even begin to dream, so I live in fear of accidently saying something out loud connected with the dream at a totally inappropriate moment!
Sometimes, also, my tongue feels slightly numb and for no reason, I start to really stammer and struggle to get my words out. This can happen when I know I am feeling run down and under pressure at work, but also occasioanlly, when I feel tired, but otherwise fine.
Also on a monthly cycle (although technically, I don’t have periods because of the Mirena, but it follows a monthly pattern) I get terrible pain in my knees at night - so much so that it can wake me up. I initially put it down to arthritis / wear and tear, but it does become markedly worse every month. Likewise, I can wake up with a really painful lower back. It really feels seized up: as though I can’t move, but after a couple of seconds, I can and it wears off pretty quickly.
I can go through periods of being incredibly thirsty, yet still wanting to urinate all the time too. On a bad night, I will get up, needing the loo and then go straight to the kitchen and drink 2 pints of water. Recently, I have also started to have really bad constipation, again, on a pretty regular pattern of 3 weeks okay then a week of being really affected.
I had 2 episodes of vertigo not long after the Mirena was put in. These were diagnosed at the time as BPPV, which I understand is not connected to MS, but I thought it was worth mentioning.
In addition, if i get run down, I can also experience sort of fuzzy vision. I can see, but there is a slight wobble to it, almost as though I am watching a TV that isn’t quite tuned in! If I look at really textured surfaces, like chunky rugs, they appear almost to be ‘rippling’. I can also find it hard to focus on 1 spot for more than a second or so and find my eyes darting about.
I get travel sick very easily - just sending a text in a moving car (as a passenger) can leave me feeling sick and just occasionally, I can stumble for no apparent reason after I get up out of a chair. Also rarely, I will be holding a small object like a key in my hand and just drop it! Actaully, I have lost count of the times I have got my keys out and just relaxed my grip and dropped them without meaning to.
Lastly, I can sometimes feel a sensation like a rubber band snapping gently (I wouldn’t exactly describe it as painful) against my cheekbone - usually, just before I go to sleep at night.
So, that’s what is happening! Needless to say, it gets me down and very frustrated at times because at other times, I am very active and fit. I eat sensibly, exercise and when I’m not falling asleep, struggling to get my words out, or feeling like I’m coming down with flu, I am happy and lively and feel great! Last year, I tried again to talk to my GP. The first one I saw was really good and she actually listened while I explained everything that had gone on. She suspected some kind of AI condition and sent me for a chest X-ray to rule out Sarcoidosis. This came back clear (which I was pleased about!) but when I asked the receptionist what to do next, she basically said, “it’s clear - nothing!” and left me feeling like if I were to make another appointment, I would be wasting everyone’s time.
A few months on and I was absolutely desperate! Work was bringing everyone in my department down - not just me and a particularly difficult project was definitely taking its toll. Added to this, my family went through a tough time and I found my symptoms were all coming back, along with feeling really desperately depressed - as though I just couldn’t see where my life was going. The best way to describe it is a sense of absolutely overwhelming dread…with no real idea what I was dreading! Again, I thought of sarcoidosis, having read up on it a little and found an article about a man who experienced just the same thing.
This time, I was alloacted a different GP who was absolutely unsympathetic! He said it was impossible that I was experiencing any symptoms on a monthly cycle becuase the Mirena was a constant dose of Progesterone. He said there was no point in doing any kind of tolerance test to glucose (I asked about an oral glucose tolerance test) because I would know if there was a link to eating sugary foods and feeling low and he refered me to their Psychological Wellbeing Practitioner to learn how to ‘manage anxiety’.
This was a total waste of time! I explained all my symptoms to her and her verdict was that I was not suffering from any kind of psychological disorder, but I ought to go back and see my GP again. She suggested a GP in the practice who is apparently very good at dealing with hormone-related problems (she was again putting everything down to some kind of hormone imbalance)
I haven’t gone back yet. I am fed up of waiting ages in the waiting room, explaining (again) everything I am experiencing and being asked, “what do you want me to do?” I always come away feeling like a fraud and a timewaster
Sorry to have gone on…and on! I just wondered if anyone else has had similar experiences and whether I ought to be mentioning MS? I really am at my witt’s end, because the tiredness and fluey feeling just knocks me right out and I am fed up of going through phases of days or even weeks of getting up in the night for the loo. I know it could be a whole host of other things, or even a combination, but looking at the MS site, it’s the first time anything has started to even slightly make sense (apart from Lymes, which the blood test ruled out)
Thanks for reading