I got a positive DX today from my lumbar puncture results. I was fully expecting them to tell me it was MS and I knew they would but it was a massive blow. I went to my neuro apt with my sister and the neuro called me in. She had a nurse with her and we were all walking down a hallway. My sister said “whos that” about the nurse and my neuro said “this is Verity shes one of our Mmmm” then she shut up. I then said “shes an MS nurse” and the nurse turnt around and said “i’m one of them yes” and that is how I was told in a hallway that I have MS.
Ive cried all day and been a total mess. I know i need to get some perspective but it’s really knocked me for six. I’m so angry at all the stupid cliches that people say and people telling me I must be positive, I just need some time to fall apart and I think in the current situation I’m allowed to do that for a bit. I will find the right head space again and I will push through but right now I wanna sit and cry and feel sorry for myself and nothing is going to change that.
12/07/2013 @ 13:00 my life changed forever.