I have done what some people might think is a silly little mistake, but to me it is huge, and has really upset me.
On the 28th November my Dad will have passed away some 37 years, and I always put a memory on my Facebook. I got up on Friday morning, and was convinced it was November, and so duly done my memory. It wasn’t until 10 pm that night that I suddenly realised it was, in fact, October not November, I felt absolutely gutted.
Over the years, I have accepted all the c****ythings ms has thrown at me, but jeez I so wish it wouldn’t play with my mind or my thought process, so frustrating and upsetting.
Hate to me has always seemed like a total waste of precious energy…but at this precise moment in time, I truly hate ms with a passion.
Don’t worry about it Pam we have all done crazy stuff and being mixed up about the date isn’t the end of the world, I know my Dad would probably laugh about it he’d have known it was the kind of scatty thing that I would do, I bet your Dad would have had a laugh too, don’t beat yourself up you can always do one again next month. Take care love and hugs Michelle and Frazer xxx Sent from my phone
Hi Pam not a waste as you where thinking about your dad and that a good thing.
Hope you are taking it slow and not out in the dark trick or treat there have been around already keeping the door locked. take care all regards Jan xx
Pam, take a deep breath and let it all wash over you. This is coming from the woman that went to remove her mascara about an hour ago… not from my lashes but where tears had smudged it all down my face. MS makes me doubt my own flippin’ mind as I’ve managed to say the wrong thing/hear the wrong thing/do the wrong thing! Not just for a few days and it’s just too much sometimes.
Don’t be tough on yourself hun, you still think of him and that’s the important bit ultimately
Thanks for your kind words, and I know what you say is correct, it’s just difficult going from someone who always had a first class memory for dates, phone numbers etc, to someone who doesn’t even know what month we are in.
My Dad would be chuckling at my latest blonde moment.
Thanks for your kind words, really does help. It has been, for one reason or another, quite a stressful time lately, which doesn’t help, but at the moment I am sick to the back teeth of crying at the drop of a hat. I asked to come off the AD’s I was taking, and my GP was reluctant…perhaps I should have listened to him!
If my Dad was here, he would be saying “don’t worry little 'un we all make mistakes” I am sure he would still be calling me that…even at my age!
Im the same Pam my memory is terrible i know its part of this illness because its not just my memory its my processing skills too, these days I can’t cope with forms or instuction books and I struggle to cope with opening letters in case it’s something that I have to deal with it’s very scary. Michelle x
Pam, we all have incidents which leave us bamboozled. I’m still thinking it’s August and the clocks went back last night. That confused me. Of course. I can’t change the clocks because it requires the dexterity of both hands. That’ll confuse me tomorrow. Your true friends will understand.
You’ve hit the nail on the head, the anniversary has been on my mind, I am just so silly letting a genuine mistake upset me so much, seems to be getting harder and harder to control emotions, and I was never very good anyway.
Hope all is well for you and your family, and of course, little Sophie.
Hi Pam, thanks for asking. Sophie had a trip to the vet this week. I found a hard lump in her tum. Turns out it’s from when she had that emergency op to put her bowel back, after she bit her stitches out following spaying.
The lump is scar tissue and needs no treatment. And the vet didn’t even charge for the appointment!