Hi Jane and welcome to the forum…
What a rotten time you’ve been having!!! No wonder you’re feeling so down.
It’s really good that you are seeing a new doctor on Friday. Make a list of your symptoms… but don’t make it too long or detailed… doctor’s hate that and think it’s a sign of health anxiety.
Just list your main symptoms and explain how they are worrying you. Tell the doctor what the blue badge doctor has said… but don’t say you have been on the internet looking at symptoms or have been on this forum. Again, it’s something that doctor’s hate.
If you can, take someone with you who can help to back you up and say how concerned you are… partner, mother, friend or anyone… but if you have to go on your own don’t worry. Just explain your symptoms. Don’t worry if you get upset and start crying. It’s perfectly normal given your situation and the doctor will understand.
What you are of course aiming for is a referral to a neurologist… so IF by chance the new doctor won’t do a referal, come back on here for a Plan B!
There are so many conditions that can cause similar symptoms to MS so for now, keep an open mind. It might not be MS at all… and many of the other conditions are very easily treated.
IF it does turn out to be MS, it really is NOT the end of the world. It is NOT a terminal illness. There are good treatments and new ones coming along all the time AND for the first time in history they are talking about a cure in the not too distant future!
Most people with MS live fairly normal lives… work, relationships, babies, travel, etc etc. Even if MS has more of an impact on our lives, we can still live a happy and full life.
I hope you get that referal… but if not, as I said, come back for more advice.
All the best,