I was due to have my first MRI yesterday. I have never had one before and was a bit nervous but after speaking to a few people who have had them I was put much more at ease. Two people I spoke to had even fallen asleep during an MRI!
Well, I went yesterday and was taken to the little mobile outside the hospital. There I saw the scanner and the scanner operator ( I don’t know the correct term) explained what would happen. I was fine with it. I got on the bed and she put this head cage thing on me. It wasn’t touching me. I was fine with that. As I was moved into the tunnel I thought I was still fine. There was a lot of clanging but that didn’t bother me. She told me the tunnel was open at both ends and gave me ear plugs which I used. Well as soon as I was in the tunnel I began to panic. I tried to look up to see the end of the tunnel but couldn’t see up that far. I looked down at the little mirror and could see the lady outside and the doors. I tried closing my eyes and imagining I was just in my bed but I could feel the tunnel closing in and I struggled to breath. I heard her say that this was only a short 30 second scan to start with and a high pitched noise began. I just couldn’t cope with it. I couldn’t breath and felt trapped. I squeezed the little black bulb thing she had given me with a lead attached to it for help and said “Get me out!”. She got me out and I sat there wondering what happened. She said to take it easy, let my heartrate come down and get my breath back and that she wouldn’t try put me through that again but would make another apointment for Tuesady in their bigger scanner inside the hospital. She said that one was more open and I could have headphones with music in that one. She also said I should get some diazepam off my GP for Tuesday. I told her I wasn’t expecting to be like that and she said it is always worse when it’s a shock.
I am dreading Tuesday now. I have never had diazepam before and don’t know what effect it will have on me. I can’t believe I was such a baby. I am fine in lifts and travelling on tubes but that was something else. I felt so trapped and really struggled to keep calm
I feel so annoyed with myself because I want this done so I can see my neuro again on the 30th May and we can discuss the results. I need this done.
How do you cope with MRI scans if you get claustrophobic? Is this ‘bigger’ scanner really going to be much bigger? Is the diazpeam really going to help? I am just worrying that I won’t be able to have it done at all and where will that leave me?